thank you...

I said Thank you to a few people who responded immediately after seeing my last post , I didn't know how to react actually... so Thank you for the few moments you diverted your mind towards this. I actually didn't want many people to see this but at that time my mind was not on those things , that is ,the places this feed ( blogposts ) goes to and who all will be reading it immediately ....

I received a few , actually more than i had imagined , mails within the first hour of posting the previous one .... and to all of you ...hey i am all right !!

You know i am a strong girl , the only thing is ...that strength comes when i feel weak and is actually a defense mechanism to the weakness , does it work that way ?? Always ?? With all of you ??
Don't know but it works like that for me.

The post was probably a confrontation with the grief , i know i will never be out of the past but yes i feel the past and the loss will not be as painful for me now.... it should become a routine thing for me to think about her and to think about her with a smiling face , a beaming heart ......she was a special gift to me ... and moreover , she will be with me all my life...

In the future too i will never stop myself from sharing my experiences with Mithi , but i know it will not be painful for me ... as i really want to share so many things so that i can make people understand that a child should get all the love and affection no matter how he/she looks or whether is a special child by any means.....

I want to share my own experiences of how i tried and succeeded ( as much is humanly possible ) in making a child happy and it's not difficult at all and most importantly , the sense of contentment it gives you .... you are a contented parent when your child is a happy child and connects with you well.

As a parent i am really really happy and contented , my daughter was a well behaved good girl , i don't call her my angel without a reason.