Thursday, December 17, 2009

melt and mingle

I have been silent on this space for a long time , it's nothing new as i have been doing it quite regularly...
.....................i post something and then go into silence here......

Just think about a hyperactive mind , it just goes on thinking and blabbering so many things at the same time but it looses touch with it's own heart for a while....consciously . Consciously , because it is the heart which is prone to aches and hurts and wrenches , you know what i mean , the mind can train itself to be straight , to be strong and to be steady ...what do you do with your heart ???

The heart still skips a beat , still longs for something which can't be granted , still cries in solitude , and still hopes for the unachievable .....all this while the mind knows what it has to do and how !!!!

Homealone is where my heart is ....and my heart is not steady....i am trying to focus my mind here but the heart resurrects and directs me the right way .........yes after all the effort , it was my heart which brought me here n not the stupid mind....

There are many people who have been concerned about Mithi's well being and have been asking me about that ( especially those people who are in touch with me through this blog only ) , i owed a blog post for their sake ....thanks a ton to all of you to make me feel connected and cared for .

Mithi has not been well and in the last three months since i posted here , she has lost weight and her general condition has deteriorated some more , her scoliosis has worsened , her limbs more distorted  .... but after hearing all this , you will be happy to hear that her spirit has not been dimmed a little bit ...she started getting her teeth flossed as her momma thought she needs it now ...i thought initially that she may not like it but when i told her that mithi will feel good with fresh n shiny teeth she knew she has to do it , and she gets it done patiently everyday ......... have you seen any 8 year old being so obedient ??

Somebody said that i opened a window to the outside world by deciding to blog about my things , yes , this window has been a beautiful one.....i can see all the greenery outside , the blue sky and the gentle breeze .....i am getting so many positive influences in my life through this window .

My heart wants to thank all those people who have come up with great advices , concerns and most importantly love ( the driving force of mankind ) ....God has been kind to me to send some great people in my life....He is sending some more great people towards me through his window..........Thank you God for this ...

All the people who connect with me here on ' homealone ' are not just encouraging me ( believe me it is not a question of encouragement for me ) .... it is like a feeling of being the same ....all of us are the same at the end of the day......frozen in our own bubbles .....it's only when we extend our hand to touch others, we know that it's the same.........the same feelings and the same emotions...the lesser fortunate people are not aliens....the heart is the same , and you know , however frozen it is , the heart can melt and mingle ......... that powers me ...and you too....